Do I still have readers?

First of all, I’m sorry I’ve been away for so long.

I am on antidepressants and going to therapy biweekly. It’s made such an amazing difference in my life. I’m doing WONDERFUL. It’s weird…I don’t feel anything, if that makes any sense. I just feel more calm, relaxed, focused and the depression isn’t weighing me down every single day. I feel like I’m in control of me.

I look back on situations and remember how I handled the and I’m so embarrassed. I don’t want to be all “the depression made me do it” but the truth is that I was in such a bad place in my life that I didn’t react to things appropriately.

I’m just thrilled to feel good about myself. It’s so nice not to feel like I deserve only bad things. And facing the sexual abuse, infertility, and several other things has been SOOOO hard, but worth it. I know it’s cliche (and I’m actually tearing up about this) but I have my life back and it feels SO GOOD. I didn’t realize how peaceful I could feel.

Things have just been amazing. I’ve lost 20 pounds and my marriage is better than ever. I have my LIFE.
Who would have thought I could be this happy?

I know I’ve been silent lately, but I just needed to focus on my mental health for a while. I’ve been on the antidepressant for about 5 weeks now and I’m meeting with the psychiatrist next week, but I think I (luckily) found the right medication on the first try.

I have a life again. Thank God.

Celexa, thank you. You were that last puzzle piece I needed. I’m finally living life.

And you know what?

It’s amazing.

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